I failed at this. And I'm glad I did. Here's what I have to say about my #100daychallenge.

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When I first came up with this #100daychallenge, I hadn't been writing outside of the office for over two years, and I desperately needed to rekindle my reliance on self-expression through word.

I only completed 60 out of 100 days, and the longest daily streak I had was 15 or so days. This was not easy. And I've got a list of excuses/reasons for failing.

The biggest hurdle? It wasn't always something I was looking forward to doing. The challenge felt forced at times, and I became frustrated with having to write on these pre-selected prompts (I made my own rules!) instead of writing about what was going through my head or my life that day.

The other major obstacle was more of a doctor's recommendation. I type all day at work and if I'm not typing on my computer, I'm on my phone. There was a point where I had to go home early because menial tasks got to be so painful. I soon found out that I had early symptoms of carpal tunnel syndrome. I needed to make some changes. Now. 

About 10 days ago, I began wearing a cast overnight and now take several breaks throughout the day to give my hands (my right hand, specifically) a rest. 

But the real changes that I didn't expect would bring me so much physical and mental peace? I turned off all news alerts, deleted Facebook and Instagram from my phone and decided to give typing post-work a total rest. A lot more thought went into my deleting the apps and turning off alerts, but more on that later. 

If you know me at all, you know I've got too much pride to easily embrace my own failures, lol. But I know what I needed to do. I may return to this in the future, but still need to keep typing to a minimum after hours until I get the all-clear. In the meantime, however, I wanted to address this and remember what I did learn/get from this challenge.

The best part about this series is that it really did force me to commit to something creative, even if I didn't last all 100 consecutive days. Some of the prompts helped me dig into feelings I'd always kept locked in a box and others allowed me to share my family's story, which has always been incredibly healing for me. 

Failing at the challenge also had its benefits (aside from the mental escape from technology). I started really reading more. Hours and hours and hours every evening. I finished Hamilton: The Revolution in less than three days and am already halfway through Comey's new book. I haven't read this much in such little time since I had to cram in college.

Another benefit: With all the time and energy I seemed to have offline, I doubled down on my workouts and spent more time outdoors during the week. Then again, I started suffering some pretty severe allergies. So...a blessing and a curse.

Alright, my hand's starting to hurt now. Until next time.

Unapologetically yours,
Fiza